Sunday, June 6, 2010

these 3 have defined my outlook on relationships/love.

1st; pure young love. our innocence and naivety brought us together, and maturity tore us apart. however i would not change any of it for anything in the world. it was some amazing times. i still love him to this day, and i wish him the best in every endeavor of life.

2nd; pure infatuation that turned to possession. subconsciously, i let myself fall because i knew you would not let yourself fall for me. up until not too long ago did i know that i was not in love with you. i never was. however i was [and partially still am] in possession of you. i would not CHANGE any of it for the world. i have learned a lot, and i am still learning. i thank you for everything you have taught me, and for all the times you have been there for me. i love him dearly, and as much as it hurts me [because change is hard] i wish him the best in life without me by his side [well at least as anything more than a friend]. i also pray that he finds love in life. i will ALWAYS be there for him. 

3rd; infatuation that turned to a strong emotional bond. you know me better than i know myself. it was pure and perfect at the beginning, but then i pushed away. to this day i am not sure if i was too blind to see it at first or if i drove it to what it is now when i pushed away the first time. i regret pushing you away, but you have to live and learn. i have learned. i was and still am at times bound by your lies. it makes me laugh sometimes because you THINK i don't know that you have not been faithful anytime after the first time we tried. however, at the same time it hurts to know that i'm not enough. but oh well, thats over now [as you say]. and i would not change it for the world. i'm glad i experienced it. i will ALWAYS be your friend, and i will ALWAYS be here for you. i will always love you more than you know. i wish you the best in your endeavors, and i pray that one day someone will be able to tie you down [again]. 

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