it's encoded in my DNA, i swear.

I am SO sick of making EVERYONE else happy at my own expense, but I canNOT stop. I KNOW it’s IMPOSSIBLE to make everyone happy because someone will always be upset. But I can’t stop trying, and the person that ends up unhappy about the situation is me. Wonderful… :/

[noted. the contrast of moods in the last two posts, but hey..."it be like that sometimes" in the words of a friend of mine]. 

T-1 or 2 hours = my best friend, corey's, arrival in TN :).

T-2 days = my mommy's arrival in TN.

T-2 weeks = my best friend/the love of my life, lelia, will be back to stay in clarksville.

I am SOOOO unbelievably happy about this.

3 of the 4 of my FAVORITE people in the world are coming to me :).

now, I just need the last one to make his way here. 

i miss you baby. 

Mind Fuck

"No sex, I just wanna hold your body. Don’t get me wrong I really wanna make love but can I just hug you? Cuddle a bit before we huddle under the sheets, I wanna dig deeper and understand where you’re coming from. Where did you get these scars? Do you know you’re my own star cause I wake up to sunshine every morning? I wanna know your wants cause I want to feel your paragraph body with your cursive fonts, I’ll understand you more if you allow me past your cover letter, into the center of your soul to feel your demographic words populate your mind state as you regurgitate it out. So let’s chill our hormones as we invade each other’s domes. Shall we?" - Spittinvividly 

my first holiday...

...without my family. it kinda sorta sucks.

but my friends family is making me feel like i'm a part of their family.

it made me feel a little better.

it would be better if i had my boyfriend or best friend here.

[better yet both].

but i'll live.

being thankful for the things i do have,

the things i don't have,

and the things i'm unaware that i have.

THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERY BLESSING YOU HAVE PROVIDED ME WITH.

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone :)

i found him :)

One question...

what is the secret to SUCCESSFUL long-distance relationships?

i need to know. i'm DETERMINED to make this work! 

this is all I wanna do. I just wanna feel your arms around me...

“No sex, I just wanna hold your body. Don’t get me wrong I really wanna make love but can I just hug you? Cuddle a bit before we huddle under the sheets, I wanna dig deeper and understand where you’re coming from. Where did you get these scars? Do you know you’re my own star cause I wake up to sunshine every morning? I wanna know your wants cause I want to feel your paragraph body with your cursive fonts, I’ll understand you more if you allow me past your cover letter, into the center of your soul to feel your demographic words populate your mind state as you regurgitate it out. So let’s chill our hormones as we invade each other’s domes. Shall we?”

Spittinvividly The Lyrical Spectrum: Mental Fuck.

tumblr...

has taken over my life.

click here to see.

sorry blogspot. 

i'll try & do better though :).

sorry for the negligence.

i've never been one to be very jealous.

but oh my goodness.
the green monster has bit me, and bit me hard.

i'm so jealous right now.
i don't know what it is about you that makes me this way.
but it's something.
it's driving me crazy.


i need reassurance.
i need to know i'm important.