More venting... :)

1. You've cheated on me before. There is NOTHING different about the circumstances we were in then and the ones we are in now. I want to ask you what's different this time, but we have never even really talked about you cheating so i'm scared to even bring it up. This is also a part of my insecurities. But i'm choosing to trust. Maybe i'll ask one day, who knows? I should ask. 

2. I think the moment I let go of my inhibitions and stop second guessing myself you will truly understand how much I care. But I don't know if i'm capable of letting go like that. Well, I know i'm capable...I just don't know how. 

3. Once I finally got used to having a step family and I liked them...he had to go screw it up. bitch. i hope i still see them even tho technically they won't be step family anymore soon. 

4. When I don't talk to you, i'm VERY cranky. 

5. I wish I wrote as much as I used to, but I just don't have the time or the urge to anymore. 

6. I should feel lucky. I've never been through anything detrimental in my life. I mean...my parents divorced, cousin died, god father died, close friend died, mom moved away...& that's really it. I've never been through anything that has broken me. But for some reason, I don't feel lucky. I'm always worried about if [and when] something detrimental does happen if i'll be able to handle it.

7. I envy those who are so openly emotional. I see a strength in them that I don't see in myself.

8.  I REALLY REALLY REALLY miss gymnastics, a lot. 

9. I think i'm slowly getting addicted to twitter :(. 

10. I have OCD tendencies. The only reason I added this last confession was because I needed it to have an even number of confessions. The volume on the tv, radio, and anything else that has volume must be on an even number always. 

I think i'm done with confessions now, for a while :).