Thursday, May 13, 2010

this or that.

Are you ready for a relationship OR do you just want someone to be there?
honestly, i just want someone to be there.
i realized a few weeks ago thats my problem. 

i'm not ready for a relationship.
i just desperately want someone to be there.

i want someone...
i can call after a bad day.
i can call when i'm bored.
i can tell them all the silly thoughts i have.
i can tell them my fears, my dreams, my feelings. 
who can be a child with me.
who will argue with me when i'm wrong.
who can listen to me ramble when i just wanna talk.
who can deal with me just the way i am, flaws and all.

but what i have recently realized is...
i won't have that until i am happy by myself.
no matter how bad i want to have someone...
i wont have anyone until i stop wanting someone.

happiness lies within you.
you are only unhappy if you allow yourself to be unhappy.
and right now i am allowing myself to be unhappy.
thats gotta stop.

goal: learn to be happy WITHOUT having someone there.


i do not need anyone to complete me.
i'll learn one day. 

:)

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