she's BEYOND amazing.

there is this girl. her name is Lelia Renee. She completes me :). I love doing collaborations with her because she finished my thoughts perfectly, and she is such an AMAZING writer. When I grow up my skills will be as immaculate as hers! I love her more than anything in the world. She is the love of my life. I'm so glad I met her, and I hope she knows that we will be friends for a lifetime and more. <3.

Me:

i can't see them coming down my eyes

so i have to make my pen cry.

as my paper soaks up my deepest emotions

i feel my cheeks moisten with fear,

but i can't look in the mirror

and face the defeat

that lies unmovable in the gloss of my eyes.

my eye lashes collect drops

of confusion, discontentment, and frustration

as powerful as a thousand seas.

and in each tear that i watch fall off the tip of my nose

and drop onto the paper

is filled the vision of what you & i could have been...

lelia:

...what you and i should've been...

you promised me that you would never love again...

you lied...

those nights i laid next to you meant nothing after the months passed...

hot soak in the tub...cold wine glass

i tried to soak away my sorrows...

i asked for nothing more than you...fully

and you never even offered it to me.

pain

thats what you left me...

and confusion, discontentment, and frustration is all i see...

"why could you not love me?"

was i not what i needed to be?

and as pain fills the back of my eyes...

i'll allow myself to do the only thing i can do...

imma cry...

imma get this -ish out...

and my pen will hate me in the morning for such a workout...

my heart will feel lighter...

it was about to pour out...

and my mind will thank me...

because this is the last time you will be thought about...

i hope you like it :)