Well, you have ALWAYS known that I am better at writing out things than speaking them so I’ll let it all out now. I love you with every ounce of my heart, I always have & I always will. We have been through some things together. The very first time we got together was one of the most amazing times of my life (tears and all). It was beautiful how much love we had for each other so instantaneously. You are the only person I let get close enough to me to hurt me. You are the only person I let past my wall. However, to this day I have yet to figure out if I made you the way you are or if I was just too infatuated at the time to realize this was always you. Regardless I am sorry I pushed you away, and I’m sorry for any pain I may have caused you (but trust me, it was not one sided; it hurt me too). You know me like the back of your hand (damn near better than I know myself), and you have always been there for me. I cannot thank you enough for that. You have put a smile on my face when I was ready to break. For a while, you were my strength. Nothing I do can show you how grateful I am for that. As weird as this sounds, you taught me how to be a good girlfriend. You stuck by me through being a bad one and helped me into the one I am capable of being. Thank you. The one thing you don’t know (or at least to my knowledge you don’t know) is I know more than you think. Every time (after the first time) that we tried a relationship I know you weren’t faithful to me. I knew you were cheating on me physically and emotionally. However, I loved you too much to let you go. We are PERFECT for each other, and I did not want to let that go even though it hurt to know that I was not enough. That’s how much I cared about you and I. However, I can’t do that anymore. It’s time for us to both let go and move on. I hope that if I am the reason you are no longer faithful (due to me hurting you the first time) then I pray that there is a girl that can restore your faith in love and cause you to be faithful again because you deserve to love and be loved the right way. Thank you for everything you have taught me, all the times you have been there for me, and all the times you have hurt me. They mean a lot to me. You are a beautiful person inside and out. You are unbelievably intelligent, and you have a huge heart for those you care about. Never lose that. I will always be here for ANYTHING you need. Please, don't ever hesitate to call me. I love you more than you will ever know or understand despite what you or anyone else thinks or says.
Love,
your (best) friend.
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