this is to the one person [outside of my family] that has NEVER let me down.
Dear Someone out of my state,
First things first, i love you. point, blank, period. NOTHING will ever change that. I honestly don't deserve you. I don't deserve for you to be such an AMAZING friend to me because i have been a TERRIBLE friend to you. I was also a TERRIBLE girlfriend to you. I'm sorry for what happened between us. Whether you believe me or not, i am UNBELIEVABLY sorry for that and I will forever feel terrible about that. It hurt me to hurt you. You are one of the sweetest guys i know, and you have one of the biggest hearts once you become friends with someone. it killed me to hurt that. However, despite all of that you still came back to me and remained my friend. you are ALWAYS there for me no matter what is going on. i could have not talked to you for 6 or more months and if i call you crying you will talk to me and calm me down like we have not missed a beat. i wish i could rewind time and realize what i had at the time, but you live and you learn right? thats what they tell me at least. there are so many experiences with you i wish i could re-do, but we don't have time machines so i gotta deal with it. i really wish there was a way that i could express how much you mean to me, but there is not. i'm sorry for everything [for hurting you. not spending enough time with you. being a TERRIBLE friend. not seeing you when you came to visit]. thank you for everything you have done for me, all the times you have been there for me, and the smiles you have given me. you are one of the strongest and sweetest guys i know. i cannot wait for the day that someone sweeps you off your feet because you deserve it. you deserve to be loved and love [& i hope it's with her. i wish you the BEST of luck with that situation]. i honestly want you to be happy. no matter what happens between us, thats what i want for you. i love you more than you will ever know, and i will ALWAYS be here for youu!
First things first, i love you. point, blank, period. NOTHING will ever change that. I honestly don't deserve you. I don't deserve for you to be such an AMAZING friend to me because i have been a TERRIBLE friend to you. I was also a TERRIBLE girlfriend to you. I'm sorry for what happened between us. Whether you believe me or not, i am UNBELIEVABLY sorry for that and I will forever feel terrible about that. It hurt me to hurt you. You are one of the sweetest guys i know, and you have one of the biggest hearts once you become friends with someone. it killed me to hurt that. However, despite all of that you still came back to me and remained my friend. you are ALWAYS there for me no matter what is going on. i could have not talked to you for 6 or more months and if i call you crying you will talk to me and calm me down like we have not missed a beat. i wish i could rewind time and realize what i had at the time, but you live and you learn right? thats what they tell me at least. there are so many experiences with you i wish i could re-do, but we don't have time machines so i gotta deal with it. i really wish there was a way that i could express how much you mean to me, but there is not. i'm sorry for everything [for hurting you. not spending enough time with you. being a TERRIBLE friend. not seeing you when you came to visit]. thank you for everything you have done for me, all the times you have been there for me, and the smiles you have given me. you are one of the strongest and sweetest guys i know. i cannot wait for the day that someone sweeps you off your feet because you deserve it. you deserve to be loved and love [& i hope it's with her. i wish you the BEST of luck with that situation]. i honestly want you to be happy. no matter what happens between us, thats what i want for you. i love you more than you will ever know, and i will ALWAYS be here for youu!
Love,
a girl who will forever & always love you
ps - you need to hurry up and have a baby so i can be a god mommy ;)
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