Letter to someone I don't talk to as much.

To be completely honest, i'm content with the people I talk to on a regular basis.

*scratch that; i just had a thought of someone!*

Dear Sister,
I wish we talked more. I wish I was a bigger part of my neice's life. I wish she actually remembered me, ha. I wish we were closer, but I guess since we did not really grow up around each other it's understandable. However, the times I have spent with you have been absolutely amazing. I love coming to Boston to visit you and your family (well they're my family too :)). I love you dearly! Can't wait to come visit again.

Love,

Your baby sister.

ps - in case you did not know...i look up to you :).

Someone i'd like to meet.

Dear a person i'd like to meet,
I have read proably every poem you have ever written. Your words are amazing, and the way you piece them together is phenomenal. The emotion that can be heard in your writing is crazy. Its like your reader can feel what you are feeling. I want to meet you just so I can ask how to better my writing. Not that I want to go public or become famous with mine. I just want to better explain myself. I think you could help with that tremendously.

Love,

a pretty big fan of yours.

favorite internet friend.

oddly enough; i have one of these :).

Dear "internet friend",
I'll start with saying I LOVE YOU! because i do, very very much. Um, we met through myspace, haha. lame. i can't even remember how or why we started talking, but i'm glad we did. the summer that we talked ALLL DAY; EVERYYY DAYY was amazing. i loved our intellectual conversations about religion, politics, love, the universe. anything either of us had on our mind we discussed it. and we were both insanely intrigued. i loved it. i miss it!! surprisingly enough, i think you know more about me than most of my friends. i don't know what it is, but talking to you was insanely easy! thank you for all the times that you have been a listening ear, and thank you SO MUCH for all the advice you have given me. you have helped me in more ways than i can explain. i'm truly grateful! :). i canNOT wait to come visit you in new orleans [which we need to plan, PRONTO sir] because i HAVE to meet you in person. you are TOO amazing. THANK YOU FOR EVERRYYYYTHINGGG!! we are definitely more than just internet friends! i <3>

Love,

the crazyy one :)

ps - GET YOUR FREAKING PHONE BACK!! i miss talking to you; and i have SOOO much to tell you. you have missed quite a bit in the past few days honey.

please excuse my absence.

i just had one of the most EPIC weekends i have ever had in my entire life.
i absolutely LOVE my brother, his friends, and florida.
however, i now know that i canNOT go to florida for undergrad.
...i'll flunk out :(. too much fun to have!

a QUICK run down
[simply because even if i gave you EVERY detail you could not understand how amazing this was, and how much i NEEDED this vacation :)].

thursday: got in pretty late. almost missed my connection flight. ran to my next flight in about 2 seconds! ha.
got to brothers house. took flight with wiz ;). watched funny movies till the a.m.

friday: wake up; bake up. met up with some of his friends. they were AMAZING. i <3 those girls!! we were supposed to go swimming, but we got side tracked. haha. ended up doing a goodwill and other various stores run. NAP TIME!! then party at brick house [in which i stayed in my brothers room and partied with the amazing girls i just mentioned :). so fun!].

saturday: chilled ALLL day. watched soccerrrrr :). then went to st. augustine! oh gosh. this is where things got amazing. got to where we were staying. BEAUTIFUL HOUSE!! ate some food; played some soccer; walked down to the pier and watched those crazy kids swim with alligators. took a break. then went back to the pier and lit off fireworks. AMAZING!

sunday: woke up to the most epic breakfast ever. blueberry pancakes; banana nut pancakes; grits; eggs; & fruit. yummmmm! went to another friends house towards the beach. played drinking games. rode our bikes to another party and then to the beach. hung out on the beach. came back to the house. had some AWESOME food off the grill. went back to the beach to watch fireworks...&& the rest of the night was a blurrrr [but to give you an idea...fireworks ended at 10, and things are blurred from there till about 4 am :)].

monday; woke up. ran some errands. headed to the airport. flight got delayed so i got to stay in gainesville. came back to the house, took a nap. woke up and PARTIEDDDDD HARDD! took a triiiipppp w/molly. went to see steve aoki @ the club. 3 hours of non stop DANCING to techno. super awesome. came back to brick house PARTIED in my brothers room. went to mcdonalds @ like 4 am. yummy breakfast food; then sleep.

tuesday: i came home :(.




^^thats how epic my weekend was. i hope yours was fun :)^^.



ps - the letters i have missed will be posted periodically throughout the day. reality is kicking my butt right now. i have SO much to do. [it was worth it tho!]

4th of July.

My fourth of July consist of riding bikes

hanging out on the beach

hitting up bars

and being with some of the coolest people everrrr!

tooooo excited :D

estatic!!

...Gainsville, here i come :)

letter to an ex.

Dear (best) friend,

Well, you have ALWAYS known that I am better at writing out things than speaking them so I’ll let it all out now. I love you with every ounce of my heart, I always have & I always will. We have been through some things together. The very first time we got together was one of the most amazing times of my life (tears and all). It was beautiful how much love we had for each other so instantaneously. You are the only person I let get close enough to me to hurt me. You are the only person I let past my wall. However, to this day I have yet to figure out if I made you the way you are or if I was just too infatuated at the time to realize this was always you. Regardless I am sorry I pushed you away, and I’m sorry for any pain I may have caused you (but trust me, it was not one sided; it hurt me too). You know me like the back of your hand (damn near better than I know myself), and you have always been there for me. I cannot thank you enough for that. You have put a smile on my face when I was ready to break. For a while, you were my strength. Nothing I do can show you how grateful I am for that. As weird as this sounds, you taught me how to be a good girlfriend. You stuck by me through being a bad one and helped me into the one I am capable of being. Thank you. The one thing you don’t know (or at least to my knowledge you don’t know) is I know more than you think. Every time (after the first time) that we tried a relationship I know you weren’t faithful to me. I knew you were cheating on me physically and emotionally. However, I loved you too much to let you go. We are PERFECT for each other, and I did not want to let that go even though it hurt to know that I was not enough. That’s how much I cared about you and I. However, I can’t do that anymore. It’s time for us to both let go and move on. I hope that if I am the reason you are no longer faithful (due to me hurting you the first time) then I pray that there is a girl that can restore your faith in love and cause you to be faithful again because you deserve to love and be loved the right way. Thank you for everything you have taught me, all the times you have been there for me, and all the times you have hurt me. They mean a lot to me. You are a beautiful person inside and out. You are unbelievably intelligent, and you have a huge heart for those you care about. Never lose that. I will always be here for ANYTHING you need. Please, don't ever hesitate to call me. I love you more than you will ever know or understand despite what you or anyone else thinks or says.

Love,

your (best) friend.