Ventinggg...

It seems i'm doing a lot of that lately.
I don't know why.
Anyway...

Honestly, i'm at a complete & total loss right now.
I have NOOO idea what to do.
I think i've subconciously numbed myself.
I don't feel anything right now. I hate it.
I keep having random moments of tears, but as soon as they go away i'm numb again.

The ONLY thing, and i'm not exaggerating literally the ONLY, thing I know right now is...
I'm NOT giving up. I'm NOT letting go.
No matter what I'm going to be here.

This is so unlike me.
But right now, I don't care.