i don't do this often.

but i'm going to be 100% real about my emotions.

i'm scared shitless. seriously.

secretly i am FREAKING out in my head.

growing up is scary. 

very very scary.

the future is unknown, and i do not do well with the unknown.

it's like every decision i make now is vital.

it determines what my future will be like.

yes, so did the decisions before this

but i was a little kid then thats different.

ugh.

point, blank, period.

I'M SCARED OUT OF MY MIND!