sometimes, i swear i have bipolar moments.

i have decided to no longer focus on what I do NOT have.

it's time to focus on what i DO have.

no more stressing about rumors.

no more stressing about fake ass people.

no more stressing about him, him, and him.

no more stressing about school/work.

no more stressing about the future.

no more stressing about the things i WANT.

i have an amazing family.

a mother who would go to the ends of the earth to make me happy, and 2 brothers i know will NEVER let me down. 

i have 3 best friends i can ALWAYS count on.

and a bagillion close friends i know are always there to make me smile.

i have a lot of  "adoptive parents" who i know will be there for me for whatever i need.

i have a job. i have a car. i have a roof over my head. i have food to eat.

what can i possibly have to complain about?!?

[honestly, i'm a little embarrassed to admit i had the nerve to complain. shame].

although i KNOW i am not where i am supposed to be in life [religiously]...

i have to say...

THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING. 

i would not be here if it was not for you.

i hope this attitude stays around for a while :).

getting my life together, finally!